Outside Looking In

finally after two weeks (actually almost, 13 days) of no softdrinks, i gave in to my worst enemy again… i had a glass last thursday and another last friday… maybe, i’ll just do it in moderation this time, if this won’t work, then i’ll stop it, i promise…

anyway, CSI’s season ender was a blast, i never really liked quentin’s style… the killbill thing was the worst movie, but he really impressed me with the CSI… as if he cares!

and at last i finally have a copy of the entire 1st season of JOEY… can’t wait to finish it… enough with the good stories…it is so sad because i’ll be busy in the next coming months (my first ever and maybe my last budget season)… my pimples are back, i’ve lost 5 pounds in three weeks… and i’m missing someone… lovelife’s not improving… hehehe though, it’s not really my priority…and another bad thing, my cba lumpsum money was delayed… everyone got their big fat paycheck and guess who’s suffering from a "special case scenario"… who else but me!… (can anyone just kill me?!?)

with this, i’m just looking forward to the following:

a. duncan sheik’s new album

b. my long delayed replacement (god, i hate budget)

c. six feet under season 5

d. andy’s victory at us open

e. ate lynn’s visit on december

f. softdrinks minus the side effects

i hate to admit it but i really never learn from my mistakes…

softdrinks is one of my comfort food, it makes me feel high, especially when the going gets tough… but for all you know, we are not good friends at all… why? because it leaves me with a wild sensation that will make me helpless for days…

yeah, i’ve been suffering from dyspepsia for the last four days… but, it’s all my fault, my doctor said i can always drink any kind of carbonated sodas but in moderation. and so to make the story end yeah, i’ve violated the golden rule… i drunk an entire truck of softdrinks for the last 48 hours…

now, i’m on a sick leave well, at least i can have a rest for awhile after almost three weeks of suffering and stress from month/quarter-end, long-range planning and the stupid 19-page 1st sem report (wherein they actually needed was 9 charts…. grrrr, why do they still require those charts and don’t even bother look at it!!!!!) and other management reports that i have to finish on such a short span of time…(and up to date i still have to pass two more reports when i go back)

so, what’s my point… this is all my fault, i shouldn’t have given in from the demands of my work… if i haven’t lost control of myself and didn’t feel bad and sad… i wouldn’t have drunk the whole truck of soda… thus, i may not have written this stupid thing at all… ( i believe this is the most non-sense thing so far) : )

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x’s: i was so excited today because i thought i’ll be able to see drew arellano on wazz up wazz up and to my surprise he’s not in the show anymore… can somebody just kill me???? grrrrrrrr……… what’s next?

I knew it, Federer will win over my fave Andy Roddick.  Being the defending champion, he really made Roddick’s fight for No. 1 a no piece of cake.  He’s more strategic and focused on the game.  He doesn’t even get intimidated by Andy.

It was really disappointing at the 2nd set, I thought Roddick will had the chance to finally get the set by getting a breakpoint, but shortly after garnering it he committed a lot of mistakes and error which have favored the defending champion.

But still, Roddick played a good fight.  He’s so cool and was really funny when asked about Federer.  He even said, and I quote, "Maybe, I’ll just punch him" as he comments what’s his next move or option when he gets to encounter Federer again.

Roddick’s strength is his serve, with almost 140mph, he has more power over Federer. If he can just keep his cool this is what he lacks, when he’s trailing behind he gets too hot-tempered at times and he tends to lose his focus.

Well, sounding a like sportscaster, huh?!?  I really love tennis, I just hope that I’ll eventually have the chance to learn the game and experience it as well… and but of course, to meet Andy Roddick…!     : )

There’s gotta be more to life …
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me …
… well it’s life but I’m sure… there’s gotta be more
than wanting more…

an excerpt from stacie orrico’s song

yeah, there’s a lot more than wasting our time slowly at nothing… worrying about everything and forgetting that we have a life to deal with at first… always searching for something that’s missing… never contented with what we have… well, proud to say, that was before… i have awaken myself from the stupid idea of wanting more… well, actually I’ve never been a victim of this that much…

i’ve never really expected something in everything… i just play the music as it goes… something that i have believed in since day 1…

i have always hated to be frustrated so i decided that i should not expect something so i won’t get mad or disappointed when the outcome doesn’t fit my expectations… relationships, work or even with myself… it applies to all…

i guess, i just want to have the simplest of life, no complications lesser issues and more peace of mind and happiness… but having said this doesn’t mean that i am expecting this to happen… i’ll just enjoy the ride and wait until God says that it’s time for me to stop…