Outside Looking In

horoscopes… believer or not? well, i am… especially when it says good things… well, past few years were really nice and not that tough… but 2006, according to the sun, moon and stars will be a tough one…

i refused to believe so… and then today happened well it’s more of february happened… i really hate the chinese astrologers who wrote that i should watch out for february… so i’ll start counting now…

1st, my transfer is a bullshit in short "on hold", 2nd, my fave gadget is bullshit… in short, sira. 3rd, i miss someone and i don’t know if i should tell him… again, lovelife’s the biggest bullshit!(the last time i saw him was almost 2.5 months ago and texting isn’t enough for me!)

hmmm… don’t get the impression that i’m mad, it’s just that i can’t believe that today is the last day of february and all of these three things happened today…(tama bang humabol sa febulous february month) and next week, i’ll be a year older… worst!

if march won’t get better can somebody just kill me this year! hehehe just kidding for those serious takers!

Finally the long wait was over… I’ve got the chance to see Brokeback Mountain last Wednesday.  (Actually, I watched it Monday on DVD… piracy sucks… the audio was no good… let’s stop piracy then! haha!)

Okay let’s go to the story… yes, for some parts it’s really slow… dragging I may say… but still, with all the sheep moments…I can say 100% that the movie was really good. (Not only because Jake was part of it… haha!)

It was really moving…  The emotional struggle was there.  It’s sad… The tagline explains the whole story… "Love is a force of nature"  No one can control this… it’s an emotion that you feel, you don’t dictate this.  No one can judge you that it’s right or wrong.  Maybe, with the norms that we have you might say that it’s against it, but is it really wrong?  Who says so?

The soundtrack was good, too. I’ve been playing this for the longest time…

"Lean on me, let our hearts beat in time,
Feel strength from the hands that have held you so long.
Who cares where we go on this rutted old road
In a world that may say that we’re wrong."

This is the last part of the song… it’s country but i still liked it.  This is what I need "A love that will never grow old".  A love that will take a risk and stand for itself…  A love that won’t even care despite the world says that it’s wrong. 

Bottom line, do I really need a place like Brokeback Mountain where I can find solace away from the closed-minded society?

Maybe I do but I think i need to find someone first haha!