Outside Looking In

You know how it is when you really care about someone. 

You’d feel like to call him because you just want to know how their day is going.  What they’re thinking about and if they’re thinking about you.  You’d spend all day trying to find a perfect way to make a conversation with him because all you have is idle talk.  You’d desire to have dinner with him and hope that the night won’t end. You’d sleep at night and ponder if he dreams about you.

Sometimes, I just wish that he could trade places with me so he would know how it feels. 

That it is just simple… You just want to be with him.  Be there when the going gets tough.  Make him happy when he isn’t.  Smile and stare at him for no reason at all.  Talk to him about nothing in particular, something stupid and basically everything all at the same time.  Watch him closely sleep at night and be the first to say hello in the morning.

If it can only be that easy then I might not be having this thought tonight.

Believe me it is just as simple as it sounds.  True to life, true to love, true to me.

I missed my Monday movie nights.  Glad that lately, everything’s going back to normal.  Slack season has started and enjoying the movies seems possible to do once again.

I have recently watched “The Prestige.”  There’s more to it than magic and mystery.

According to the movie, great magic is composed of three parts:

1. The pledge – the part where the magician shows something that appears ordinary

2. The turn – the part where the ordinary becomes extraordinary

3. The prestige – which is the greatest ingredient of all, it is where “the twists and turns, and you see something shocking you’ve never seen before”

The plot of the movie worked like magic.  It marked a nice lesson on me.  It’s a tale of obsession and revenge that went wrong.  The characters were too busy to overdo each other becoming preoccupied and neglecting what they have become.  Overlooking of what they have lost, relationship, respect, all for exchange of getting “the prestige”.

As the Great Danton said in the movie that “The reason for doing the magic is to see the faces of surprise in the audience as they suspend their disbelief for just one moment in a world where everything can appear to be explained.”

If it could only be that simple then everything might have been different. 

It’s full of deceit, battle of supremacy, and magic tricks with deadly consequences.

At the end of it, you’ll ask yourself, “What is one willing to sacrifice for the prestige?”  Is it really worth to lose everything for it?  At the end of it, will this make you happy?

A very well crafted movie, it’s a nice way to end a busy day.  Five stars!!! Two thumbs up!  Superb!

Lately I have been insanely detached with the truth.  Well, it’s not easy being me.  My world of illusions and fantasies will always be there.  I thought I have always kept a certain dose of reality.  Until, one night I found myself being knocked down by a great disappointment, fear came as the door of depression starts to invite me in.  Luckily, the window of hope shed some light on me. 

I expected so much from something that I know I won’t have.  At first, I was hesitant to believe that it was happening but still I dreamed on.  I can’t blame myself because I was misled; I was trapped for the time being.  Then the suspected unfortunate event happened.  I can’t contain my emotions and my frustrations grew and drew closer; I have no choice but to forgive myself.  I just can’t believe I followed through that.

Lessons learned:

1. Be happy when it is within your reach.

2. Don’t be too dreamy about love.

3. Shit happens.

4. Expect a bright tomorrow.

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Sometimes, all you need is pain to remind you of the past lessons that you have learned but failed to practice. 

By the way, I believed in lesson number 4 and something unexpected happened that led to lesson number 1.  I just hope that after all of this, I won’t forget lesson number 2.

Life’s good if you just believe.  Just believe.