Outside Looking In

Lately I have been insanely detached with the truth.  Well, it’s not easy being me.  My world of illusions and fantasies will always be there.  I thought I have always kept a certain dose of reality.  Until, one night I found myself being knocked down by a great disappointment, fear came as the door of depression starts to invite me in.  Luckily, the window of hope shed some light on me. 

I expected so much from something that I know I won’t have.  At first, I was hesitant to believe that it was happening but still I dreamed on.  I can’t blame myself because I was misled; I was trapped for the time being.  Then the suspected unfortunate event happened.  I can’t contain my emotions and my frustrations grew and drew closer; I have no choice but to forgive myself.  I just can’t believe I followed through that.

Lessons learned:

1. Be happy when it is within your reach.

2. Don’t be too dreamy about love.

3. Shit happens.

4. Expect a bright tomorrow.

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Sometimes, all you need is pain to remind you of the past lessons that you have learned but failed to practice. 

By the way, I believed in lesson number 4 and something unexpected happened that led to lesson number 1.  I just hope that after all of this, I won’t forget lesson number 2.

Life’s good if you just believe.  Just believe.

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