The One with the missed sunshine
Few days are left for the year; and I’m thinking of just skipping it and sleep for the remaining period? Lately, I’m not in the mood to be happy. I can’t find any reason to be.
Again, I’m longing for something that’s illogical. Being human says, it’s okay for it but I’m saying that it’s just crap. Dreaming of something that I can’t ever have is truly unbelievable. At first, I thought it was just a temporary insanity. But it went wrong; today it’s trying to seek for permanence in my life. This is what’s screwing my mind and heart for the past two weeks or so? But I refused to continue on.
Loneliness has never been good to me.
Reality: The enigma that I thought there is wasn’t there anymore. I can’t do anything about it because it is the truth. Nothing can be done about it besides you can’t fix something that wasn’t there all along. I guess I just have to stand it.
The open space between what I know and what I tried to believe in was unraveled to me.
I’ll be on sabbatical.
I don’t want to miss the sunshine. But with these, I guess I have to for a little while until I find a good sense of reason why I need to wake up for another day.
