Outside Looking In

I am recently engaged with One Tree Hill marathon since I decided to give it a try.  Weekends are getting a little boring and there’s nothing really good to watch at the cable.

I’ve been listening to its soundtrack.  Basically, living a life of tree hill lately.

Recently, I was struck by its story. (Season 2) It actually revolves about lies. Beneath each character has their lies, some are white lies and most of them aren’t. Trying to protect their own interest, some for others.  Which reminds me of a certain conflict in my life lately.

This is what happened.  I have been pretty much true with my feelings and was really 100% comfortable that my friend would be someone who can watch my back for me.    Someone you trusted so much and reservation wasn’t even a choice at all.  You confide everything to them so they’ll know when and how to look after you from something you are too afraid to see. Or at least that’s what I expect from them.

And it can be very disappointing that the same person would be the one to fulfill your worst dream to life.  Puzzled as I am right now and I still keep on wondering.  Like in Tree Hill, I begin to ask.  Is this friend really mine or someone else’s? 

I have never really expected that this will happen.  I don’t even think that this person is aware of what she’s done to me.  That makes me worry more.  How clueless could a friend be?  How insensitive can she get?  I can’t fathom her actions?  I can’t believe that she’d do things to hurt me and possibly in the process lose someone I truly care so much.

I have always believed that honesty will set us free.  I am ready to know.  Even how hard this can get.  I want answers to my questions.  I am prepared to deal with this pain. 

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